stamina

heaven find me
hunched over
pressed against
the cold and
apathy sipping
comforts that
leave me like
a landslide

and there's a parade
of outcast and damned
playing ukele and
chanting song
dragging their mutt
along and even it
has glee

heaven find me
find me here,
now--
your turn
your turn to
take me
lead me by the hand
and take me to
a more fervent home

where faces form
the blockade to
the stabbing winds of
transience and
transcendent tidings croon
with no evident demise

forever, forever
forever find me
christen me your son
hold me within

no more goodbyes,
please, no more
goodbyes

as the chanters
leave me sullen
and i have not the stamina
to both live
and die