endless goodbyes
tragedy's tears
vesper sighs

today is grieving
for tomorrow, whom
is a widow never
to love again

you
removed from
me
is an agonizing
reminder
of the immortals patient wait
for my conceit

and i'll lose it all
to stop time
for a little while

beyond memories
those shabby ransack illusions warped
with tears and
ruminations...
beyond those--

if only to find the truer history!

scourging through time in closed eyes
if only to return to moments
(return, return, return!)
to moments where

the Holy was evident

Holy upon High
evident and nigh
there like solemn hands grasping
my soul and
held still it still in ecstatic contradiction

such temporal things reaching beyond
and through unveiling such immortal things
if only for a moment

you and i in my shabby dorm bed
held still in a transient world
held still in change
unifying for time, time
so dear now, time so
scarce now to
a sole vessel voyaging
together
together
together

with our eyes closed i smile to the dieties
as our breath is in sync

if only for a little while

our naked bodies
standing innocent as
the shower water
falls
and hell if i didn't know then
and hell if i didn't know in that moment
as you looked with such love in
my scared wild eyes that
you loved me
that you loved me

naked as i stood

my body
my mind
beaten--
if only to separate
the wheat from
the chaff

what is lost and
what is loved...

the limited and
the limitless ah!

intertwined forever
in some infinite braid
perfectly mysterious

perfectly mysterious

if only i could love the world
possessing the Immaculate grace--
alas, i loved
you
and only wanted
you
but if only I had that grace to
let it all go

over and over again...

what is the truest nurture?
the comfort that lasts?
the womb that never ousts?
desperate needs, tragic dismays and
ambivalent angst as i close my eyes to
find my truest nature--

rebirth.

reluctant,
time and time again
to move on

and maybe i'll
never learn to escape
the shooting star
before it collides and
loses its glimmer

sweetheart, the impact makes the end evident
and i'll never have to guess again
and i'll never have to wonder
so forgive me if i tried
too hard
too soon
and begged
too much
cause Lord knows I couldn't live
if I gave up too soon

and our vessel shooting star once unified
collides together
to fall apart

and in my heavy heart I know to witness such demise
is, too, Holy,
and such pain is, too, Holy,
so now there have been enough tears for me to exalt Love

in its entirety
in Birth
in Demise

sweetheart, the impact makes the end unreckoning
as the stars collide! as our pulse becomes no more!
cause Lord knows I couldn't live
if I gave up too soon.