i've made myself into too many things
and they all resent each other
seemingly, now, only other people's eyes keep me whole
like i'm a bratty band that just pretends to get along
for the fans

im sure there is some keen way to see this body
as something more peppy as a prison
but today i feel so goddamn confined
to a toddler's tantrum

i look at myself
get over it
i tell myself

i won't shut up about the dumbest things
and it's starting to get annoying
i'm losing my diplomacy
and i'd prefer not to become an alcoholic,
thank you very much

so maybe ill just clean my apartment
and get cat food until
i learn some magic trick to be cohesive,
again,

fuck