who knows what i'll be

i'll forget my name, sure,
i'll forget those stretch of words,
easy,
i'll forget my shames, those knotted
little things, of course,
sure!,
i'll forget my country and i'll forget
my home, bed, pillow, the feel of
a head nestled, i'll forget, man,
i'll just forget,
i'll drop my swagger, too,
yeah,
smear off my megolomania,
rub it from underneath my eyes cause
there is no fighting now,
i'll forget the year,
i'll forget the month,
i'll forget the day,
i'll forget who my father was, i'll forget what my father has done,
i'll forget who my mother was, i'll forget the things my mother has said,
i'll forget who my friends are,
i'll lose all my allies,
what war? what war? what war? what war?
i'll forget Love, vivid or livid, i'll
forget Hate, i'll forget all the crowns i've worn,
all the things i've done, paths i've treaded, faces
i've adorned, expressions that excited, fears,
fascades, fictions, mythologies, forget the feel
of eyes stabbing my subjectivity, voices vindictive
of my shaman's dance, i'll forget all that my spirit has
spewed, i'll forget the longing cry of my gentle little boy
to be held in the mothering arms of passive purpose,
i'll forget my rage--
COWARD!
FACE THE WORLD
ACCEPT THE WORLD
BECOME THE WORLD
LIAR!
MEAN A DAMN WORD YOU SAY
SLOTH!
PUT YOUR FULL EFFORT INTO FUCKING SOMETHING
FOOL!
THEY CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU
i'll forget the real world, i'll forget the real world,
i'll forget the real world, i'll forget the times of panic,
searching as beads of sweat swamp, i'll forget my
dreaming mind that runs from everything certain,
i'll forget the red eye malignants that haunt my every conjecture,
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
what war? what war? what war? what war? what war?
i'll forget my father's call to fight the good fight------
what war? what war? what war? what war? what war?
i'll forget my every resentment of compliance, i'll forget
every cheap thrill of defiance, and i'll even forget how to breath,
and i'll forget how to make my heart beat, and i'll move so goddamn fast
that i'll displace nothing, not a molecule or any miniscule tender ego
energy and who know what i'll be then,
and who knows what i'll be.