dualism

dueling dualism:
indecision to
pick a color of a prism--
divide and conquer:
alter,
alter,
alter.

i read the words preaching the pretense of suffering
and i couldn't help but wonder if that all life is.

i read the words exhaling the premise of joy
and i could not help but wonder if that all life is.

life is nothing,
first,
something,
second,
everything,
third.
(then nothing,
again)

but what about the times where she held me
and i held her and we were far from hell and
maybe even a little bit closer to heaven?

but what about the times where she shooed
me away and kept on dancing?

i only wanted
her name!

i only want to name
this life in feeling
without
feeling
that it's half the truth, that it is
less than whole.

i only want that
name.